I have sat down at least three times lately to write a new blog - and half-way through I get interrupted. It seems my kids are unable to play by themselves for longer than 3 minutes at a time. This frustrates me! Which leads me to the point of this blog:
Is it normal that I don't like my children at times? Is there such a thing as "burn-out", like eating too much of something, with your own children? I know this sounds just awful, and I don't like feeling this way, but I find myself needing my own "time-out" in the midst of dealing with the drama, fighting, whining, and demands. I have to look into their eyes and see the precious little soul there, and close my eyes and listen to their sweet voices (when they aren't whining) - than I can't help but love them - but my patience are thin and I'm drained. I've tried to analyze what the real reason is for my lack of patience and the stress I feel - but can't think of anything that really bothers me. I started going to a woman's Bible study on Monday nights, and I think maybe this will help my sour attitude. We are going to be studying the book of Ruth for the next 10 weeks - and the theme is "It's Hard Being A Woman".....yeah, this is probably just what I need. An attitude adjustment. So I think I'm being prepared for what the Bible study is going to show me - feeling like this makes me realize I need God, constantly.
But at least I've been able to finish a blog this evening - that's a step in the right direction.
The pictures are from our recent camping trip.
