Thursday, June 11, 2009

Not That Great




I have sat down at least three times lately to write a new blog - and half-way through I get interrupted.  It seems my kids are unable to play by themselves for longer than 3 minutes at a time.  This frustrates me!  Which leads me to the point of this blog:
Is it normal that I don't like my children at times?  Is there such a thing as "burn-out", like eating too much of something, with your own children? I know this sounds just awful, and I don't like feeling this way, but I find myself needing my own "time-out" in the midst of dealing with the drama, fighting, whining, and demands.  I have to look into their eyes and see the precious little soul there, and close my eyes and listen to their sweet voices (when they aren't whining) - than I can't help but love them - but my patience are thin and I'm drained.  I've tried to analyze what the real reason is for my lack of patience and the stress I feel - but can't think of anything that really bothers me.  I started going to a woman's Bible study on Monday nights, and I think maybe this will help my sour attitude.  We are going to be studying the book of Ruth for the next 10 weeks - and the theme is "It's Hard Being A Woman".....yeah, this is probably just what I need.  An attitude adjustment.  So I think I'm being prepared for what the Bible study is going to show me - feeling like this makes me realize I need God, constantly.   
But at least I've been able to finish a blog this evening - that's a step in the right direction.   
The pictures are from our recent camping trip.

1 comment:

The Lomeli clan said...

The reason you are sour is because your best friend is so far away and can't cheer you up.
I think it is normal to be grouchy at your kids. I am a lot! I feel bad too, especially after I leave them and go to school and have time to reflect. I know you are beating yourself up over it, but I think you are a very patient and great Mom. I see how gentle you are with your kids and that is a good example to me and other Mom's. Don't get down on yourself. I see it as prepping your kids for the "real world" if you will. Good luck with your bible study and have fun with "your" time. Love you!